Tuesday, February 11, 2014

30 Week Blog Challenge: Week 23-A Letter to Your Parents

This week's challenge is "A Letter to Your Parents"

I have never written an actual letter to my parents. There was an episode of Gilmore Girls where parts of the storyline were flashbacks of Lorelei's teen years.  One day she decides to pack her things and take Rory off to their new life in Stars Hallow.  She wrote a letter, "Dear Emily and Richard" and left it for them.

I could never imagine writing a letter like that. However, if I was to write a letter to my parents, it would be a nice letter, a letter of thanks. I would thank them for supporting me through thick and thin.  Through the years, they have set through numerous doctor's appointments, surgeries, and everything else.  They have provided so much wisdom, even when I didn't always listen.  When I look back on the times when I was hard headed, I shake my head and say, I should have listened.  Because they have experienced things and seen things. Why make the same mistakes as others if you don't have to.  Be observant and listen to wisdom because it may just save you some heartache and pain.

Friday, February 7, 2014

30 Week Blog Challenge: Week 22- Current Relationship

This week's blog challenge asks us to talk about our relationship. I'm not currently in a romantic relationship.

So, I guess that I will talk about friendships.  Friendships are pretty hard for me. I have a few people I still keep in contact from school every once in awhile. Although we practically grew up together, we aren't close these days. We lead our separate lives.

I remember after high school, I had to learn a hard lesson about who were my real friends. There was a person from my past whom my mother warned me about.  In high school, she only ate lunch with me when her friends weren't around. I don't want to smother people or expect to spend every single moment with them, looking back, I was just convenient to her.  I wanted to hang out with her outside of school, but it was always bad timing and excuses.  She invited me to her graduation party, but when I got there I felt very out of place and was ready to go home. Did she invite me to shut me up or because her mother probably made her?  Probably.  After that, I would call but she was always busy.  Everything my mother warned me about was true. Why was I so hard headed? Eventually, I stopped trying and all contact ceased.

Through the years, making friends have been a challenge and keeping in contact with people is challenging. Sometimes it seems easier to be friends with someone who is physically challenged.  In school, the physically challenged community stuck together and socialized.  I guess the idea is that we will understand each other, relate to each other's problems, etc.  For the most part, the other kids would shy away from us.  There is also that feeling of always having to explain things.

As far as making friends goes, I'm pretty introverted.  I also wonder if these new friends would want to be seen with me, see me as a burden, or just in my life for a season. I also question if they are out to use me. It's crazy, I know, but sometimes these are things that I think about.  I wonder how they will feel about my taste in books, music, etc.  I also wonder, how long is this going to last?

Last year, I thought that I found a good friend.  At first, I felt apprehensive and always cautious. Things were going well and we hung out and went places.  So everything was going great and moving along smoothly.  In a blink of an eye, it all changed.  I won't go into details here, because it is not the place for it and it is not my style to put all my personal business on the Internet or call people out of online.  To cut a long story short, I found out that she was gossiping about a family member.  It bothered me, and  I have kept my distance from her ever since.

There is one lesson I have learned repeatedly over the years: once you learn someone's true feelings or the truth about someone, there is no turning back.  If I was to reconnect with this person, it wouldn't be the same.  I wouldn't be able to trust this person knowing that they gossiped.

As far as keeping in contact with people, I try to call, but I feel like I am always calling at a bad time.  I don't want to be that annoying person who constantly calls people. Once, I had someone block my number. Also, I had someone to tell me that they preferred texts and emails rather than phone calls.  I guess they tired of me calling.  So that's why I embraced social media, texting, and emails, and old fashion letters.

As of right now, I have a few people that I can call good friends.  At the end of the day, all you really need is one good friend. It is better to have one good friend than 500 fake ones on Facebook.  Here is some food for thought.  How many friends can you turn to in your time of need?  Who can you turn to when you are feeling down and not gossip about you?  Who can you call at 2 am if you are in trouble?

Romantic relationship are scary. There was one person who I thought cared about me, but in the end he didn't. Once again, I was just convenient, he was just in my life for a season. I often worry if the next person I meet will accept me as I am, frown at my interests, and other concerns.  Would I be willing to pursue an interracial relationship?  Honestly, I am apprehensive. Will I be judged by others?  Well, of course.

So there you have it, relationship.  This wasn't the easiest post to write.

The Friday Five

  1. Last week, I missed the Friday Five since I was leaving for out of town.  I have been seeing reports where various parts of the country have been covered with snow.  Last week, the Upstate region of South Carolina received a few inches.  It lasted one day and half where I live.  I didn't go out to play in it or attempt a snowman.  I feel like I'm too old for snowmen or snowball fights. However, a good snowball fight doesn't hurt every once in awhile.  I like snow, but I don't like ice storms or icy roads. 
  2. And speaking of weather, we went from low temps to the 60's.  It's crazy weather, you don't know how to dress for it, and then sickness hits you.  I came down with a cold Wednesday. I hope it is not the flu.  I felt the sniffles building up and cold Wednesday morning.  When I got home, I took medicine and went straight to bed. I spent all day Thursday in bed. I didn't feel like reading, getting on the computer, or anything.  I tried to listen to The Writer on audio, but I fell asleep.  I tried watching TV, but I kept falling asleep.  The medicine made me feel drowsy and loopy so nothing made sense.  Today, the medicine wore off thankfully, but my head hurts and my patience is short.  
  3. The nice thing about borrowing books from the library is that you can see if you like a book without sacrificing your money. I purchased some books a month ago and so far I didn't feel like I got my money's worth.  I just finished Lola and the Boy Next Door by Stephanie Perkins and sadly I wasn't impressed with it.  I'm not sure why it is even a companion novel for Anna and the French Kiss other than the fact that St. Clair and Anna appear in the book quite a bit.  You can read my review here. I decided to check out Someday, Someday Maybe by Lauren Graham.  The summary sounds interesting and it has received good reviews. And I usually don't pay attention to reviews.  My introduction to Lauren was back in the early 2000's when she was Lorelei Gilmore in Gilmore Girls. I started watching NBC's Parenthood because of her.  We have seen plenty of celebrities who have published books.  I read Lauren Conrad's L.A. Candy series.  I think that Lauren Conrad is a good writer, but the series felt like I might as well go back and watch The Hills on Hulu or Netflix. Also, the characters, particularly Madison got on my nerves. Hopefully, Lauren Graham will prove to be a talented writer and she provides a good book.
  4. Last weekend, I got to see a good friend of mine Celeste.  She is a blogger and owns an Etsy shop called A Girl and Her Clay. She hasn't updated her blog lately, but she is definitely busy in the shop. These days she uses polymer clay to make her jewelry.  Her jewelry is colorful, unique, and make great conversation starters.  Celeste and I don't get to see each other often. We live almost an hour away, so we don't get to visit often. I was happy to be able to spend some time with her last weekend.

This week, Facebook celebrated its tenth birthday.  Really?  I didn't have a clue about what Facebook was until 2008-20009.  To celebrate, Facebook made flashback movies for everyone featuring popular photos and posts.  Wow, MySpace is 15 years old, and I don't think that they received this much hype. I guess no cupcakes and party hats for them.  MySpace seems forgotten.

Have a good weekend everyone!