Sunday, December 16, 2012

These Little Shoes

Hello everyone!  I know I know I have been away from the blog for over a month now and I sincerely apologize for it.  I have been in the middle of finishing up some writing projects and developing some new ideas.  Stay tuned for more details.

A few weeks ago, I wrote some reviews for some children's clothing retailers including The Children's Place,  77 Kids, and The Children's Place Canada.  And these really cute shoes gave me something to think about.  A picture of these purple shoes became a wallpaper on my computer. My brother asked if these were my dream shoes. I said "no."  (These aren't the original shoes, but you get the idea).

Note: I like to keep my personal life out of the online world as much as possible.  So I am careful not to share too much information or something I will regret or get in trouble for later. Therefore, I will only share certain aspects of  my personal life. The shoes inspired this post.

Next year, I will be turning 30.  Because I am getting closer to being 30, I am starting to contemplate my future.  You know things like, will I ever find that special someone?  Will I ever get married and have children?  (Will I name my child after a book character?)  A friend of my who is younger calls reaching 30 a mid life crisis for women.  Well, I am not sure about that, but I know that your thinking begins to change.

I remember back when I was in my early 20's, I could care less about dating and getting married. I didn't understand what all the hype was all about. However about four years ago, all of that changed. My cousins, peers, and some friends were getting engaged and married. In one year I was going to a wedding every time I turned around. Another issue I was having was when I was in college, I developed a crush on my professor.  I had crushes before but at that time, it felt wrong.  It felt wrong because I was a 20 something dreaming about someone who was totally out of my league.  It felt high schoolish. And the whole time I kept reminding myself of the obvious factors.  The crush ran its course and ended. After that, I was tired of living in a fantasy world.

Another issue I know I will have to face if I get married is rather or not to have children.  I am undecided on the subject.  I LOVE children and they love me back.  I am pretty good with them.  Raising children in today's world is hard work.  Because of that factor alone, many people have decided not to have children.  Case and point I have friends who have said that they don't want to have children. Then I know some who do want children.  For those who don't want to have children, I can understand their concerns.

My heart goes out to those who want to have children but can't.  It's a shame how the shooter took the lives of those innocent children in Newtown, CT.  He's a coward simply put.  He took innocently lives because he's unhappy.  My heart goes out to those parents.

I would love to have children someday.  I have a teenage brother.  As teenagers have their ups and downs.  When experiencing these downs, I would think, "okay I can see why people don't want children."  No matter what generation you grew up in, being a teen had its own challenges.  Raising children has its ups and downs.
But then there are moments like these.

Yes, I know the picture is not right side up.  When children look at you with their big eyes and smile at you, it just warms your heart.  I love the little girl in the first picture.  Looks like she is anticipating something.  Maybe she is hoping for someone to pick her up.

Whatever my future holds, I can't wait to see what happens.  Have a good day everyone.